I have returned to the States. I am sooooooooooooo disapointed that things just never came together for me in Jordan. My house was never finished, I was unable to buy a car, and I could not afford childcare. I read over the last sentence and all I see is I, I, I. Yes, we left Jordan, because I could not hack it without a lot of income. The last few weeks I was there, my mood changed and got worse the colder the weather became. I withdrew and isolated myself.
Anyway, my husband missed the kids and I soo much, that the day I called him weeping, he agreed that we could come home. I do have some regrets, but when I hear my children speaking Arabic, I realize that I did not waste my time in Jordan. I will definitely miss the view of the hills of Amman from my kitchen window, the taxi rides to City Mall with Layla, my good friends that I met in Amman, and my husband's loving family.
It is ironic that I plan to try again. Not this year or next, but one year when I am able to live in a finished house and have my own car!
